It could be Karma but I’m tired of being drug through dirt and not treated fairly because of my past decisions. It doesn’t give her the right to abuse the one she loves with attitude, frustration, dishonesty and mostly loving halfheartedly…but She said she forgives…it could be Karma.

I sit back and take indirect abuse because of conviction for what I’ve done in the past and believe that somewhere down the line her neglect will catch up to my past neglect , she’ll bring it to a tie and we can well…call it a draw of pain and start back truly loving. Unfortunately it doesn’t work like that…It could be Karma.In the midst of the heartache I make my mind up that I’m not going to take no sh**t anymore, but at the end of the day my heart softens because I ride on false hopes and do what I think is best for me. I stop and think, I’ve done her wrong…it could be karma.

But where is the person that knew how it felt for their significant other to steadily hurt them? Did I do such a thing to cause someone to loose their conscience and morals? Its not all bad but I can’t continue to carry her scale of unforgiveness on my back or maybe I can consider it karma and bite the bullet that I deserve to be catapulted at me. I’m all about moving forward, but i can’t control anyone else but me and that’s a task within itself. What will change before it gets worse or do we fall apart? Will I stand firm to what is right in my eyes or be overthrown by the reincarnated me in her?